hi! no problem, i trust this message is in good faith so i'll do my best to answer thoroughly! to start, i grew up in a christian cult and household full of evangelical christians growing up. and still live with these people today. these people abused me incessantly with christianity, manipulating and verbally harassing me over every little thing i did and everything i said to make it about christianity somehow. there is more to it than this, but for the sake of not getting into my expansive trauma history with these people, i'll leave it summarized to that! as you can assume, being abused this way affected my relationship with christianity, but it also led to expansive conditioning related to christianity which led to me associating with angelhood and feeling like i am involved in angelhood, along with my predisposal to psychosis in my childhood leading to those feelings and associations getting significantly stronger. this part of my identity isn't something that i chose, but was rather abused into me and i have reshaped it into something that i consider more beneficial to my identity than it once was. i don't personally consider this part of my identity to make me "better" than anyone else, considering i am currently in a human body and am capable of making human mistakes, errors, and judgements the same way that any normal human can. if someone else perceives it that way, there isn't much i can do about that because i simply do not perceive myself as better than anyone else, and my identity isn't one that i can willingly change or affect in any capacity. in regards to two alters fronting at once, in DID there is such a thing as "co-fronting", "influencing", and "co-consciousness". the first alter listed is always going to be the "main fronter" in my system who is the one who is speaking, moving around, interacting with people, etc. but if more than one alter is listed, it's possible that those alters are around the fronter influencing them to do/say certain things, "co-piloting" so to speak, or just generally "aware" in the same space as the main fronter to the degree that the main fronter could hear what that alter is saying, thinking, or feeling to provide influence on what is expressed, done, and felt in the body. in this case, the alter that is currently co-conscious with me at the moment is currently 'spectating' the things i'm doing because it hasn't fronted in a long time and it's more or less trying to determine if it would be safe or comfortable for it to front any time soon. it is also encouraging me and influencing me to do certain things, kind of like how student drivers will have an extra set of pedals in the car that can be pressed or used in case of emergencies to influence how they're driving! i haven't had a lot of time to update my website in a while honestly. the only reason why my fronting tracker always updates immediately/consistently is that i have an external app that i use to track my fronts, and the script on my site is linked up with that and updates when i update it externally! so i'm not updating my site, my site is just grabbing external data and updating itself. regarding my identity, the reason why i don't like they/them is because they/them is a term that's often used to misgender transgender individuals even if they might go by other pronouns. people tend to default to they/them because it is "safe" because of it being neutral, but this often leads to disregard of people's main pronouns and defaulting to they/them even if they might not actually go by that pronoun. i don't use or like being called they/them pronouns because when i get called that, it feels like an explicit disregard of my identity, especially my femininity, because i can appear so androgynous in real life that it feels insulting to some capacity that people are defaulting to what's "safe" instead of making the effort to gender me correctly. hopefully that explains it effectively enough!! thank you so much !!! i really hope you have a lovely day and thank you for your message :-)!!

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YUPP!!! i grew up with it since i was like 11 it's really really dear to me!!! i hope the same to you

i am intersex. i have an abundance of testosterone in my body and other deformities about my body that set me apart from having a "Cis Female Experience". i've been mistaken for a man far before i even touched hormones dating back to elementary school. one of the first observations i made when i got my hormones tested was how much testosterone i had in my body. all of the aspects of my biology are underdeveloped because i had a deficiency of estrogen growing up. i am flat chested. if you did any research you would find out that it is actually very common for intersex people to start transitioning as a way to compensate for the hormones they started off with. there have been so many documented experiences of intersex people transitioning with testosterone or estrogen before they realize they're not happy with it anymore because they're internalizing intersexism they've experienced directed at their "Assigned Sex" (which is a very perisex ideology that is forced upon intersex people invasively every single day) yes, i was transmasc for a while. and now i'm transfem. because i am intersex and am not biologically either binary sex. By Definition i am transitioning to be more feminine because i am not naturally feminine. even pictures of me dating back to childhood i look androgynous instead of like a little boy or little girl. and i have experienced oppression for this all of my life even by my own family calling me a failed woman. maybe if you read my profile you would have understood this but evidently you only care about taking my actions in bad faith instead of maybe assuming i had a good reason for identifying this way

ありがとうございます！！ i owe a lot of thanks to the developer of 7css for the aero/windows 7 themed windows! i recommend checking them out (as well as 98css) because their work is incredible!! https://khang-nd.github.io/7.css/ https://github.com/jdan/98.css thank u so much for your support and thank you for your kind words i truly appreciate it!!!

THANK U SO MUCH!!! and tysm for the info! marquees have been deprecated for a long time so it's probably best that i manually code an alternative i've just been lazy ... but i will add it to my list of things to do!

HI HIII THANK U THAT MEANS A LOT!!!

my secret is i'm prescribed a stimulant to treat my debilitating ADHD! and i also get fixated on coding a lot since it's one of my biggest interests LOL. my best recommendation is to make a to-do list of smaller achievements and slowly work your way up! i typically start with a sloppy mockup that i draw in whatever art program you like using, then start by loosely blocking out the shapes/basic outline of the site and keep building up from there. big projects can be daunting, but it gets a lot easier when you work things out step-by-step and stop processing them at such a large scale! it's easy to burn yourself out and overwhelm yourself if you're not careful (also, no, i don't have a github! at least not one i use for uploading code repositories)

THANK U!! you too

HI HIII!!! thank you so much! ^o^ i appreciate it a lot

AWAWWW THANK YOU!!!!! i took inspiration for the PMD portraits from a friend (we commissioned the same artist for them; baronessfaron!) and i think it's sooo cute and such a cute idea. totally feel free to use that for insp for your own site!!

tysm! :3

thank you so much

AWW THANK YOU!! that means a lot to me i'm glad i could brighten your day!! have a lovely day too <3

THANK YOUUUU HEHE. i need to update the plushies page because i just modified one of them actually... i'll get to that soon >:3